Author: JJ Taylor
Many have shared that I am the strongest woman they know. I would disagree... when life kicks you in the teeth there is only one place to look and that is UP!
I will be sharing my poetry, random thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, defining my strength and my faith. I'm honest, raw and real. I'm writing more for me, but perhaps someone will find my words that will help you in a profound way
Roller coaster
Grief like a roller coaster
Up
Down
High
Low
Up has been longer
Until recently
Seeing your blue eyes everywhere
Your silly sneezes
Your outlandish sunglasses
Orange skies painted just for me
Reached for the phone
Wishing we could chat
Talked out loud to you several times
Need some solid Mama advice
Louie Armstrong randomly played,
“La Vie En Rose”
Closing my eyes and oh the memories…
Your awful singing
Our awkward dancing
Falling into each other’s arms laughing
Need you now more than ever
Your paintings everywhere
They make me happy
Headed to Vegas & I wonder
Will I find you there?
Vegas your home for over 22 years
The memories
The missing
The joy
Of you… everywhere
Grief like a roller coaster
Up
Down
High
Low
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Blue
Blue The Color of…
The sky
Glaciers
Sea glass
Peacocks
Blue bells
Lanterns
Ocean
Nail polish
Walls
Blue the color of emotions…
Melancholy
Sadness
Tears
Turbulent
Transcending through multiple shades
And layers
Of blue
Laughing
Crying
Wandering thoughts
Route back to you
Letting go is blue
Healing wrapped in a warm fuzzy blue blanket
Blue crayons draw blue hearts
Mourning you, Mourning me
Dark eyes look in the mirror, wanting only peace
Peace is vibrant robin egg blue
I’ll find you there
Happy
Melting into blue lapis
Sun shining in the crisp
Blue sky
Words to my year ago self
You are awesome
You are going to do great things
You are strong
You are able
You embraced challenges
Started your 1/2 sleeve
Watched your daughter learn and grow
Be there for her, but let her make those hard decisions
And own them
You were brave
Remember not to get wounded in the little things
Let things go more
Pick your battles better
Seek first to understand
Your listening has gotten better
Do more of that
Stop the echo in your head that says, “I can’t”
Your “can’t” kept you hostage for too long
Let “I can’t” be more of, “I CAN”
You put in the work
You found courage
Keep listening to your instincts, no doubting
Learn
Seek forgiveness from others & yourself
Stop rutting
Stop wallowing
Keep moving forward
Find peace
Pray more
Laugh more, daily on the regular
Tell your family & friends how much you love them
Continue to seek joy in the little things
Stop being so hard on yourself
Relect on how far you’ve come
Stay passionate
Rock steady
Keep learning
Set bigger goals
Believe in yourself
Get more sleep
Keep writing
Be open
Be honest
Be transparent
When tough days come- get back up
Cry
Own your pieces & parts
Reflect
Change what you can
Heal
Find peace
Stay in your now
How to stay mentally strong… — changeyourlife
— Write down 3 things you’re grateful for everyday — Make yourself strong against negativity — Never argue with strangers, in fact never argue with anyone. — Use positive self – talk because you become what you think. — Celebrate your success more often, even the smallest success you should celebrate. — Learn to let […]
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Great post! Had to share!!
UNSTUCK
Swirling clouds
Muddy the brain
Too many thoughts
Stuck
Inability to decide
The path
Everything feels broken
Twisted
Swirling
Hot
Everything is hot
Sweat runs down back
Sweaty pits
Tears
This is hard
This phase
Phase in
Phase out
Longing
Seeking
Discovery
Pounding workouts
Clears the brain
Releases tension
Overtly sensitive
Yet strength pops up unexpectedly
Now what?
Breathe
Stop for a second
To reflect
Just how far you’ve come
This too shall pass
More is coming
It’s just a thing
One more thing
That’s what you do
You do
And do
You grind
Until your hands and mind bleed
From exhaustion
From fear
And yet
You sense more
Something bigger
Something unexplainable
Something unexpected
Something good
Something startling
Be startled
Destiny calling
Can you hear it
Can you feel the wind kiss your chin?
Hair flying
Chaos
Hope
More
Dreams waiting
What will you do when they come for you?
Swirling clouds
Muddy the brain
Too many thoughts
But
You
Will
Get
Unstuck
When you’re ready
And prayed up
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Pep Talk
Great pep talk! One of my favorites!
Time
Repentance to others takes time
Often it’s never enough
Wounds are too deep
For others to accept
Salt water may cleanse the wound
But healing takes patience & time
Time we don’t have
Imagination is worse than reality
Yet reality can’t be heard
Or processed
Leaving wounds open
Picking at wounds never help
Picking at scabs when close to healing
Opens everything again
Prayers go up
And up
And up
And up
Where is the faith?
Lost it along the way?
No repentance will offer resolution
Or acceptance
Or forgiveness
Maybe forgiveness comes
In just letting go
Of the wounds?
Of each other?
Of the past?
Of the hurt?
Acceptance that things will never be the same again
Regardless of forgiveness
The decision that it is done
Done done
When do the wounds heal?
What makes repentance meaningful?
When does healing come?
Mentally?
Emotionally?
Physically?
Let go and let God?
Easier said than done
Wounds ooze as they heal
The process takes time
Time is something we don’t have
Or do we?
You
Will
When
You’re
Ready
Time
Unmovable
Set your mind to it
Whatever your IT is
Make a plan
Get to stepping
Life will derail you
Stay unmovable
Know where your strength comes from
Be honest with yourself
Vocalize your dreams, your goals, your plans
Heal
Inside & out
Topple over- get back up
You are unmovable
You can do this
You are more than you give yourself credit for
Get help
Find courage
Be Brave
You’ve got this
No fear
See joy around you, but grab some for yourself
It’s ok to cry… let it out and let it go
You are unmovable
And awesome
You can
You will
You are
There is a hope and a plan for your future
And it is good
Rock solid
Unmovable
PERFECT EVERYTHING
She stands poised in her best clothes
Trophy wife with a smile on her face
Social media portrays a woman with it all together
Beautiful self, perfect everything
Hair, nails, makeup
Beautiful children who are perfect
Perfect everything
Beautiful husband, rich- prestigious career
Beautiful home, perfect & grand
Beautiful vacations around the world
Behind the lenses of social media
You’ll find tired eyes
Pace marks leave tracks in the perfect white bedroom carpet
She wonders where her husband is
Really in meetings?
Really so busy?
Does it matter that he cheats?
She can’t give up this life
She can’t afford the lifestyle for herself
She can take half of everything
But even that isn’t enough
She works out like crazy to clear her head and pound the anger away
In the process she doesn’t eat which leads to bitter battles
He wants his women big
He craves women big
The bigger, the better
His obsession
Soon to be 50 and he’ll never change
His thirst for big beauty will never stop
He can’t contain it
He hides it, but can’t live without it
All done in secrets and lies
Secret apartment
Secret life
Secret underworld on boys trips
Doesn’t matter the age
Perfect wife will never know
The pace marks in the white carpet tell a different story
So do the phone calls to unknown numbers as she screams at big beauties to stay away from her husband
They’re working on their perfect marriage
Fixing things, aren’t they?
Isn’t that what his words say?
He wants her to believe
She is loved
Cared for
Adored
Oh! But what about them?
Their children watching, knowing, feeling
Perfect Mommy with anxiety will never measure up
The legacy cycle will continue
Generation-to-generation
Must be great
Must be perfect
Must not fail
A price to pay
Hidden pleasures locked away with lives broken
In the wake of his obsession that will never be satisfied
Big beauties are not perfect for the rich
They do not portray the right perfection
The right health & wellness
What a mess
What a lie
It has to be exhausting for everyone
Hearts are broken
Lots of them
No one wants to “feel” loved
They want to be truly loved
Thin beauties, big beauties
Loved just as they are
Without conditions
Pace marks continue to track in the perfect bedroom carpet
Perfect tired eyes of the trophy wife wondering
Where is her perfect husband now?
And big beauties wait for & cry over a man who will never be theirs
Always sold empty words
Meaningless daily morning texts
Bait & hook
Unfulfilled
Words without action
Never to be loved, only used
“Feel” loved?
Narcissistic husband living in a house
Of perfect cards
She stands poised in her best clothes
Trophy wife with a smile on her face
Perfect everything
Or is it?
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