The Essence of Iris

20 degrees the day you were born

A beautiful bundle that even today 

Could rock a paper sack

You are generous

Because you know those who are not

You are kind and loving to everyone

Even in a run-down car with

Three babies you remained

Determined

For a better life for them, for you

Your selfless love & actions

Set you apart

Your legacy lives on forever

In the amazing faces of your children

And your beautiful granddaughters

In each of them you will find qualities of you…

Strong

Reliable

Caring

Hard-working

Understanding

Strong-will & determination

You carry your head high

Because you know who you are

And whose you are

You are powerful

You are amazing, a prayer warrior

You can be scary and intense at times

Especially when mad or in 

Beast mode at the gym

Even in those moments

When you think you’ll break

You still cry out to God

Your heart remains soft

Emotional- you cry at commercials

You cry at a song

You cry when we cry- those you love

You wipe away OUR tears 

Before you ever wipe away your own first 

You are incredible

Maybe it’s a stretch to say you’re an

Angel on earth

Or is it?

You never give up

There is no word called QUIT or CAN’T

You love without judgment

You listen and are insanely supportive

Even with the pointed finger

And tongue lashing…all in love

Your high-pitched baby puppy talk

Breaks glass

But no one would have it any other way

Let’s not forget

That you’re smoking hot

Those sensual moves rocking that salsa beat

Lifting your hands in your hair

Gliding across the dance floor 

Not one person breathes

Enchanted by your effortless sexy

You love hard, you work hard, you play hard

Your wisdom is wanted & necessary

For those of us who seek your kind of strength

Never forget who you are & what you are

To all of us & those who haven’t even met you yet

Happy 50 our darling woman

We love you so much

Always

JJ McCreary


Love Letter

You say you love me

Yet you struggle to look me in the eyes

I want to snuggle with you when you sleep

But you won’t stay still

Mind running

Future planning

You are exhausting 

I think you create your own chaos 

When are you going to live In the moment? 

The now?

I love you so much 

You need to trust the strength I give you

I’ve got you

I’m stronger than you give me credit for

Please trust me 

And not that voice in your head

That says otherwise 

Together we’ve GOT THIS

Give me a little credit

And yourself

You’ve come so far and together 

If you love me, I will worship you for 

A lifetime 

Please come back to getting to know me as your first love

I love you & I miss us,

Your Body

❌⭕️❌⭕️

Acceptance

I reached for you

In my dream

But you were gone

I heard you call my name

But in the darkness 

I could not find you

I pleaded for you to appear

But you didn’t 

I fell to my knees

In anguish

Lost

I felt a warm blanket

Fold over my shoulders

I cried into its softness

Until I had no more 

Tears to cry

Acceptance of my now 

In that moment 

Peace arrived

I knew from deep within 

That everything

Would be just fine

Leukemia

Constricted chest feeling like

The weight of a 1000 pounds

Unable to breathe

Hospital admission times two

Necessary bone marrow test

Leukemia?

How could this be?

Not to me

She needs me God… please

Don’t take me, not yet

She clung to me after the test

My back and pelvis throbbing

Excruciating 

I didn’t want to move her

Her napping drool pooled

On top of my spotted blue hospital gown

The pain vibrated 

Trying to reach my call button

Her eyelashes caught my attention

Peacefully she slept on my chest

The pain melted away

Into the beauty of her face

Calm hushed like a roar in

The hospital room

In that moment I knew

I would live

For her

For me

For us 

*2015 journey of the leukemia scare that took 6 months to rule out

Two Texts

They stare at me

And I back at them

Two texts

Last ones ever sent

Never to receive again

Two beautiful and important

Women in my life 

Mom #1 & Mom #2

They taught me

Independence 

Strength

Determination

I miss their advice

Their laughter

Their perfume 

Two women that altered

My trajectory 

Forever 

So I hold on to two texts

As a reminder 

To love

To live

To feel

To grow

To learn

Two women who molded

Me

Two texts