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Imperfectly Perfect
The light shimmered and danced
Along the ocean waves
Sand pipers ran to catch periwinkle
A glimmer catches
Attention
A beautiful shell
Cracked & broken
And another
And another
And another
A reminder that
Right now
This moment
It’s ok to feel
What you need to feel
Be what you need to be
To realize that even
In your imperfections
You’re still perfect
Right now
As you are, today
So give yourself
A little credit
A little praise
You’re not the person
You were yesterday
Tomorrow
You won’t be the person
You are today
Embrace your now
Love, cry, feel, be, enjoy
Find your happy
In quiet
In the waves
Stirring up beautiful
Broken seashells
That will remain
Imperfectly perfect
Just like you
Brokenness
Your love story
Enchanting
It gave people hope
It gave them joy
When the police appeared
Shock vibrated
You folded into arms
Weeping on shoulders
We cried with you
It triggered sadness
For a love story
That wasn’t
A reminder of realness
Of human behavior gone wrong
Choices made derailing
Everything
Cried for the brokenness
Of you
Of hope
Of missing love
Things will never be the same
You must keep going
Lift your head
Don’t look back
Don’t go back
In the brokenness
You will find your strength
And yourself
Your love story
Is still waiting
When you heal
And the brokenness molds you
Into something stronger
And even more precious
The best is yet to come
Don’t settle
Ever again
For now… mend
Compelled
Compelled
To Red Rock Canyon
To climb and hike
And be
To breathe
To feel the hot Vegas sunshine on my face & shoulders
I HAD to be there
Couldn’t not go
I had to share this beautiful place
With my friends
I stared up the mountain trail
Already half way up
I knew… I had to run the rest of the way up
My feet started to chop
Digging in to slippery gravel & rocks
My lungs burned
Not use to the altitude
Her voice in my head: you can do this honey, you can
I can do anything I set my mind too
Once at the top I wanted to pass out
Near asthma attack
But I did it
Climbing mountains in life is tough
But we will make it
The way down will be so much sweeter
Joy is coming, it will come back
My brother… dumbfounded
What compelled you to Red Rock Canyon?
Me: I couldn’t NOT be there, I felt driven to be
Brother: you do know I scattered Mom’s ashes all through that canyon?
Tilt!
Tears… I was beckoned there…
Love, grit and peace
Compelled
Red Rock Canyon, 9/29/18
Roller coaster
Grief like a roller coaster
Up
Down
High
Low
Up has been longer
Until recently
Seeing your blue eyes everywhere
Your silly sneezes
Your outlandish sunglasses
Orange skies painted just for me
Reached for the phone
Wishing we could chat
Talked out loud to you several times
Need some solid Mama advice
Louie Armstrong randomly played,
“La Vie En Rose”
Closing my eyes and oh the memories…
Your awful singing
Our awkward dancing
Falling into each other’s arms laughing
Need you now more than ever
Your paintings everywhere
They make me happy
Headed to Vegas & I wonder
Will I find you there?
Vegas your home for over 22 years
The memories
The missing
The joy
Of you… everywhere
Grief like a roller coaster
Up
Down
High
Low
image: Google image
Blue
Blue The Color of…
The sky
Glaciers
Sea glass
Peacocks
Blue bells
Lanterns
Ocean
Nail polish
Walls
Blue the color of emotions…
Melancholy
Sadness
Tears
Turbulent
Transcending through multiple shades
And layers
Of blue
Laughing
Crying
Wandering thoughts
Route back to you
Letting go is blue
Healing wrapped in a warm fuzzy blue blanket
Blue crayons draw blue hearts
Mourning you, Mourning me
Dark eyes look in the mirror, wanting only peace
Peace is vibrant robin egg blue
I’ll find you there
Happy
Melting into blue lapis
Sun shining in the crisp
Blue sky
Words to my year ago self
You are awesome
You are going to do great things
You are strong
You are able
You embraced challenges
Started your 1/2 sleeve
Watched your daughter learn and grow
Be there for her, but let her make those hard decisions
And own them
You were brave
Remember not to get wounded in the little things
Let things go more
Pick your battles better
Seek first to understand
Your listening has gotten better
Do more of that
Stop the echo in your head that says, “I can’t”
Your “can’t” kept you hostage for too long
Let “I can’t” be more of, “I CAN”
You put in the work
You found courage
Keep listening to your instincts, no doubting
Learn
Seek forgiveness from others & yourself
Stop rutting
Stop wallowing
Keep moving forward
Find peace
Pray more
Laugh more, daily on the regular
Tell your family & friends how much you love them
Continue to seek joy in the little things
Stop being so hard on yourself
Relect on how far you’ve come
Stay passionate
Rock steady
Keep learning
Set bigger goals
Believe in yourself
Get more sleep
Keep writing
Be open
Be honest
Be transparent
When tough days come- get back up
Cry
Own your pieces & parts
Reflect
Change what you can
Heal
Find peace
Stay in your now
UNSTUCK
Swirling clouds
Muddy the brain
Too many thoughts
Stuck
Inability to decide
The path
Everything feels broken
Twisted
Swirling
Hot
Everything is hot
Sweat runs down back
Sweaty pits
Tears
This is hard
This phase
Phase in
Phase out
Longing
Seeking
Discovery
Pounding workouts
Clears the brain
Releases tension
Overtly sensitive
Yet strength pops up unexpectedly
Now what?
Breathe
Stop for a second
To reflect
Just how far you’ve come
This too shall pass
More is coming
It’s just a thing
One more thing
That’s what you do
You do
And do
You grind
Until your hands and mind bleed
From exhaustion
From fear
And yet
You sense more
Something bigger
Something unexplainable
Something unexpected
Something good
Something startling
Be startled
Destiny calling
Can you hear it
Can you feel the wind kiss your chin?
Hair flying
Chaos
Hope
More
Dreams waiting
What will you do when they come for you?
Swirling clouds
Muddy the brain
Too many thoughts
But
You
Will
Get
Unstuck
When you’re ready
And prayed up
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Time
Repentance to others takes time
Often it’s never enough
Wounds are too deep
For others to accept
Salt water may cleanse the wound
But healing takes patience & time
Time we don’t have
Imagination is worse than reality
Yet reality can’t be heard
Or processed
Leaving wounds open
Picking at wounds never help
Picking at scabs when close to healing
Opens everything again
Prayers go up
And up
And up
And up
Where is the faith?
Lost it along the way?
No repentance will offer resolution
Or acceptance
Or forgiveness
Maybe forgiveness comes
In just letting go
Of the wounds?
Of each other?
Of the past?
Of the hurt?
Acceptance that things will never be the same again
Regardless of forgiveness
The decision that it is done
Done done
When do the wounds heal?
What makes repentance meaningful?
When does healing come?
Mentally?
Emotionally?
Physically?
Let go and let God?
Easier said than done
Wounds ooze as they heal
The process takes time
Time is something we don’t have
Or do we?
You
Will
When
You’re
Ready
Time
Unmovable
Set your mind to it
Whatever your IT is
Make a plan
Get to stepping
Life will derail you
Stay unmovable
Know where your strength comes from
Be honest with yourself
Vocalize your dreams, your goals, your plans
Heal
Inside & out
Topple over- get back up
You are unmovable
You can do this
You are more than you give yourself credit for
Get help
Find courage
Be Brave
You’ve got this
No fear
See joy around you, but grab some for yourself
It’s ok to cry… let it out and let it go
You are unmovable
And awesome
You can
You will
You are
There is a hope and a plan for your future
And it is good
Rock solid
Unmovable
strengthdefined 