Leukemia

Constricted chest feeling like

The weight of a 1000 pounds

Unable to breathe

Hospital admission times two

Necessary bone marrow test

Leukemia?

How could this be?

Not to me

She needs me God… please

Don’t take me, not yet

She clung to me after the test

My back and pelvis throbbing

Excruciating 

I didn’t want to move her

Her napping drool pooled

On top of my spotted blue hospital gown

The pain vibrated 

Trying to reach my call button

Her eyelashes caught my attention

Peacefully she slept on my chest

The pain melted away

Into the beauty of her face

Calm hushed like a roar in

The hospital room

In that moment I knew

I would live

For her

For me

For us 

*2015 journey of the leukemia scare that took 6 months to rule out

Two Texts

They stare at me

And I back at them

Two texts

Last ones ever sent

Never to receive again

Two beautiful and important

Women in my life 

Mom #1 & Mom #2

They taught me

Independence 

Strength

Determination

I miss their advice

Their laughter

Their perfume 

Two women that altered

My trajectory 

Forever 

So I hold on to two texts

As a reminder 

To love

To live

To feel

To grow

To learn

Two women who molded

Me

Two texts 

I Believe In You

Sometimes our love & belief in others is enough to carry them to and through to believe in themselves. Isn’t it a bummer that many of us trip up in not believing in ourselves?!  Why do we do that? 

Listen carefully… you are enough! Grab the bull by the horns, go slay your giant, climb that mountain…. know that you can do ANYTHING you set your mind to. The time is now, not tomorrow. Now. 

Oh and if it helps… I love you. 

#findyourtribe #loveunabashedly #iloveyou #youareenough 

You Will When You’re Ready

Mama always said, “You will when you’re ready”… For anything in life 

Find Happiness 

Heal everything (emotionally & physically) 

Enjoy being alone

Love life

Sing in the shower

Love yourself 100%

Know you’re enough

Know your worth

Love your professional life

Know your leadership 

Continue to grow, change & morph

Never sets limits on yourself in anything 

Or anybody

Is intentional in everything

Dance to Spanish Music

Walk in high heels

Enjoy the moments when you’re in the moment 

(Please be in the moment)

Publish your…

Novels

Children’s books

Poetry 

Travel the world…

Hawaii

England

Greece

Trinidad

Jamaica 

Rwanda 

Scotland

Italy

Mexico

Egypt 

Have amazing companionship from a partner who can hang, is faithful, communicative, passionate, energetic & loves you unconditionally 

Never set boundaries on anyone or anything

Stay open minded, not judgmental

Leave a legacy that people will never forget

Stay receptive

Be open

Easy communicator

Energetic

Eat healthy

Sleep well 

Find rest

Get peace, know peace, feel peace

Get hope, know hope, feel hope

See miracles regularly

Be still

Listen to that still small voice

Let go & let God

No fear of quiet

Be alone, feel alone, embrace alone

Walk upright

Know your strengths

Follow your dreams 

Remember HE is greater than I- in everything 

Mama always said, “You will when you’re ready” 

She was right

I

Will

When

I’m

Ready