I jumped for the beauty
For the “Holy crap he’s beautiful”
This beautiful creature chose me!
The humility
The amazing conversations
Our easy banter, the wicked wit
The caring
But…all the beauty…everywhere
Those kisses, those moments
Worth it?
I am hurting
Images in my brain I can’t erase
How do I erase them?
How do I erase you from my heart?
Knowing I was never really a choice
Not even second or third, or fourth
Realization melts over my skin like sticky caramel
And whispers goodbye
You have it all wrong, he said
Do I?
You’ll regret it, he said
Will I?
I am exhausted
Tired
Ready for more
To be nourished
Cared for
Looked for
Sought after
I started dreaming again
On my own
About a future
About quiet
About peace
Peace isn’t enough, he said
For me, right now
It is
Your love story
Enchanting
It gave people hope
It gave them joy
When the police appeared
Shock vibrated
You folded into arms
Weeping on shoulders
We cried with you
It triggered sadness
For a love story
That wasn’t
A reminder of realness
Of human behavior gone wrong
Choices made derailing
Everything
Cried for the brokenness
Of you
Of hope
Of missing love
Things will never be the same
You must keep going
Lift your head
Don’t look back
Don’t go back
In the brokenness
You will find your strength
And yourself
Your love story
Is still waiting
When you heal
And the brokenness molds you
Into something stronger
And even more precious
The best is yet to come
Don’t settle
Ever again
For now… mend
strengthdefined 