Happy 32th Birthday Michael!

You are Beyond gracious

Dimples always beaming

That fat grin who welcomes anyone

Even ate my horrible chicken

Can do anything you set your mind to

Beyond talented

There is nothing you cannot do

The tap tap tap of redundant noise

I could’ve done without but….

I secretly missed it when it was gone

Your head back laughter is life changing

The day my dad died and you hugged Halle and I so tightly and then… the rest

Whom I loved and fell. You were there prayed without ceasing

You never stopped loving me even with my mouth like a sailor

You were there to help me to the bathroom on my second abdominal surgery- petrified that you may have to help me up off the toilet.

You were there for the braces for broken feet, hands, & fingers.

Every morning you stormed the sanctuary and prayed for this crazy family who fell head over heels in love with you & called you son.

I believe in your destiny

I believe you are the most incredible man I’ve ever met

I believe there is NOTHING you can’t do

Especially when you put your mind to it

You could be bitter due to hard things

But you’re not

You’re beaming and joyful

You give me hope

Hope in humanity

Hope in love

Hope in God

Hope in dreams & prayers come true

And the realization that love transcends to anyone… you just have to open up and believe in a man more than sometimes he wanted to believe in himself.

Michael I love you, I will always love you

You will forever be my son

Proud beyond measure of you

Keep dreaming your most wildest dreams

And making them come true

Happy Birthday! I love you


But There Should Be

Truly let go?

Stop thinking of us?

Fill a void

That can only be filled

With one

The one?

Find your happy

Find your peace

I was honest



But Impatience


Became more

Than understanding

Healing needs to occur

It’s not rejection

Of my love

It’s a pause

For me to love me

In my now

20 years of lost

Can’t be erased

Right away

Patterns need to be




Needs to be


To be better for us

Your eyes

Betrayed your truth

Maybe I should

Feel rejected too

Oh wait…

I do

Why are good-byes

So hard?

Will I ever be whole?

I think so

One day at a time

I can

And I will

When I am ready

In the meantime

I’ll cry, feel & be

Whatever that is

For me, in my now- maybe secretly

Where is hope in

And grace for the other?

Apparently there is not

But there should be

Blush Pink & Rose Gold

Your laughter lights up a room

Especially snorts for things extra funny

Your beauty shines everywhere

Inside & out

You never back down

You never give up

You walk with head high

You know who you are & whose you are

You pray & love without ceasing

You don’t judge because

You’ve been judged

Your passion for your patients is inspiring- A break through and you cry with them

If you were a color you’d be your favorites- blush pink and rose gold

A perfect reflection of your beauty & your grace

Sassy and honest, your eyes betray your truth only to those who know you well

You give your time and energy to girls who need your example

You are a rare unicorn to exemplify

You’re not perfect, rather authentic and subtly real

Your green eyes gleam like diamonds when tears come- happy or sad

Their shimmer is breathtaking

I am different now- Because of you

Better, reflective as I too seek to find

A little blush pink & rose gold in my life

Everybody needs some

Never change darling unicorn

You were made for such a time as this

I love you

Tough Cookie

You are a tough cookie

Scrappy- Like me

Two peas in a pod- You & I

Day one staring at you

Realizing you reminded me of myself

You hold your emotions

Surely If you show them you’ll fold

Never to get up again

If I could tell you that isn’t true

Would you listen?

In those vulnerable moments

You’ll find your wounds

And begin to heal from the inside out

You are a natural leader

Which you don’t own

Because you don’t need to

You simply are, accept it

Listen to your gut which will guide you Along with prayer to accomplish

All those dreams you have locked up

You don’t share them due to fear of

What if you’re wrong?

Oh the embarrassment, the told you so’s

What if you’re right?

Dream & speak to your wildest dreams Speaking them

Writing them

Visualizing them

Will ensure you get them

Sitting in quiet dealing with your pain

Is something you refuse to do

My tough cookie you must

You must deal with the pieces and parts So you gain strength

You’ll need that strength

To accomplish all those dreams

Do not wait until you’re my age to realize

Run like a cheetah

Faster and faster until you can’t breathe

If you do, you will begin to release

All that isshhh that you don’t own

And begin to grow & heal from the inside

As you wade through those things

You will find your wings and fly

I loved you the moment we met

I see you

I know you

I understand you

You are understatedly beautiful

No validation needed

You are what you are

And it’s perfect

Perfect in the flaws, scratches and scars

Tough cookie- You’ve got this

You can do anything you set your mind to

Just don’t take the easy path

In the hard you’ll find yourself

And all you are meant to be

Stop running from yourself

Trust your gut

And fly

I love you

I believe in you

My tough cookie

Not My Now

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You cherished me knowing

I was not ready to cherish back

I felt your gaze & knew you loved me

I hate that I couldn’t love back

I’m sad for you, sad for me

If only it was a different time

But it wasn’t

I still have the missing

Missing you, missing us

It is simply not my time

Not my now