Leukemia

Constricted chest feeling like

The weight of a 1000 pounds

Unable to breathe

Hospital admission times two

Necessary bone marrow test

Leukemia?

How could this be?

Not to me

She needs me God… please

Don’t take me, not yet

She clung to me after the test

My back and pelvis throbbing

Excruciating 

I didn’t want to move her

Her napping drool pooled

On top of my spotted blue hospital gown

The pain vibrated 

Trying to reach my call button

Her eyelashes caught my attention

Peacefully she slept on my chest

The pain melted away

Into the beauty of her face

Calm hushed like a roar in

The hospital room

In that moment I knew

I would live

For her

For me

For us 

*2015 journey of the leukemia scare that took 6 months to rule out

Author: Jeni McCreary

Many have shared that I am the strongest woman they know. I would disagree... when life kicks you in the teeth there is only one place to look and that is UP. Life within the last six years has been difficult in having lost my father, mother, step-mom, two brothers, nephew & five beloved dogs. Grief can alter your trajectory a bit...so I write. This blog will be my random thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, defining my strength and my faith. I'm honest, raw and real. If you don't like that... that's ok...I'm writing more for me than you. Maybe someone will find this blog and my words will help you in some small way.

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